I bet most of you thought I retired from the writing game huh? Well, I always said that I was not going to write unless I had something substantial to inspire me. Unfortunately, I was just given a ton of it. Not only am I being called back from retirement from writing, but to the battlegrounds I thought were so happily in my past. Incase any of you missed it, my routine quarterly blood work turned up an elevated Carcinogenic ...
Antigen (CEA) of 8.5. CEA is the blood tumor marker for Colon Cancer. My CEA since my last surgery 14 months ago has been hanging around 1.4-1.5, otherwise, normal. The elevated test results prompted a PET-CT Scan this morning at 7am in Chelsea. I had a follow up with my nurse practitioner Terry at Yawkey Cancer Center in MGH. The results showed that I do have a reoccurrence of the disease. Three metastases are located in the lymph nodes of my abdomen, 1 small tumor in my liver and a possible single tiny growth in my lungs. Because of distribution of the tumors, it immediately eliminates surgery from current methods of attack. So that means as of tomorrow I will be having my port put back in and chemotherapy will begin again. The obvious hope is that I will respond to the chemo as I have in the past and this will open up further methods of disease control / removal in the future. On a positive note, we caught them while they are all very small.
Emotionally, as always I am pretty on top of my game right now. I was prepared for this, what I can never be prepared for is my families, friends, and fiance’s reaction. That is where I get emotional and have a bit of difficulty keeping my composure. But make no mistake about this, I will not and have never wavered from my path. Once again we will hit this disease hard, and hit it repeatedly until I have rid every last drop of it from my body, no matter how long it takes.
Some of you may be wondering about the wedding? Not for one second would I miss such a wonderful celebration with all my friends and family members. I may have a small set back in my life’s plan, but there is nothing that would ever hold me back from marrying the most amazing person I know, my rock, my love. So to those of you attending, please remember to bring your party shoes, because nothing has changed. I just have to throw my superman suit on a few days a month to fight these evil little fuckers.
Remember, Stay positive, Believe, As always – I love you – Teej