So I haven’t received too many questions lately other than “how are you feeling?” Soooo inspiration for a new blog post takes some serious thought….. or thoughts….. hmmm, “thoughts.” Well, interestingly enough, that is exactly what I have been working on for the past couple weeks, and really since this adventure started for me. How do I focus my thoughts to keep me happy, motivated, and most importantly heal me? Isn’t that what meditation is all about? I know how to stay positive, how to truly believe, but how do I pinpoint that energy to do exactly what I want it to do?
I will tell you I most certainly have had all the right preparation. Every car ride, golf match, hockey practice or ski trip was filled with conversation on the power of the mind and positive thinking. “Teej-a-beej, do you know what made Phil Esposito great? He was always in the right place at the right time. He was able to visualize where the puck was going to go before it went there, put himself into that position, and score.” My father has always been a huge proponent of that if you truly believe something will happen, your sub-conscious mind has the power to make it happen. It’s almost as if he knew, as if he was preparing me for this challenge, maybe subliminally he did know. Any of you that know my Dad well, know that he has always had a knack at predicting things, so why not predict one of the most significant moments in my life?
“What the mind of man can conceive and believe, it can achieve” – Napoleon Hill
I can’t tell you how many times my friends have responded “Ok Dad!” after I felt my input to the situation was necessary. I can tell you the majority of the time I was just making sure everybody was ok, that they were safe and happy, regardless of how the outcome would affect me or how annoying I was being. I’m not saying I have always made the correct decisions when it has come to my own personal path, for I have made plenty of wrong ones, but when I see someone in pain I get this gut wrenching feeling that I just can’t ignore. My Mom demonstrated this “trait,” this ability to speak up, when others would not numerous times through my life. Her compassion for the wellbeing of others has become engraved into my soul, it is what feeds what many of you have deemed my “strength.” You see…. every time I speak to one of you, or see one of you, or read one of your comments, I can sense your emotion…. I can see your hidden tears, hear the fear tremble in your voice, feel the struggle to contain your emotions when we embrace. All those feelings are what triggers that trait, that call to action, I want to make it better….. I want to make it better because I can’t stand do see any of you hurting. I need to make it better, I will make it better. And from that emotion, that gut wrenching feeling I build resolve and a strengthening energy that grows with every comment, prayer and text you send my way.
My parents may have provided me with the right mental tools to get the job done, but just because I have a sword doesn’t mean I know how to wield it. So it is my mission to learn how to manipulate, hone and master my skills. I need to learn how to take that strengthening energy, that positive belief and use it to my advantage. Fortuitously, my army is packed with compassionate and amazing people who have a breadth of knowledge, ideas and suggestions that have pointed me in the right direction. Everyday when I take a shower, I turn on some light relaxing music (usually Pandora set to Enya lol) and visualize the cancer rinsing from my body, I feel it slowly drain and think…. and believe:
“Let the Water rinse the cancer from my head down into my shoulders, rinse the cancer from my shoulders and into my chest, rinse the cancer from my chest and into my stomach, rinse the cancer from my stomach and into my hips, rinse the cancer from my hips and into my thighs, rinse the cancer from my thighs and into my calves, rinse the cancer from my calves and into my feet, rinse the cancer from my feet and into my toes. Squeeze the cancer out of my toes, rinse the cancer out of my toes, out of my body into the water and down the drain. The cancer is rinsed out of my liver, rinsed out of my lymph-nodes, rinsed out of my colon, rinsed out of my body, into the water and down the drain. The cancer is rinsed out of my body, into the water and down the drain.”
I repeat this process over and over again until I feel adequately cleansed, until I have drained every last drop of cancer out of my body. When I step out of the hot steamed up shower a burst of clean, pure, brisk, energized air hits me and I feel cured, I believe I am cured, I am cured. Now, If I can get such a rush from a shower, how can I harness that feeling in other aspects of my life?
A good friend pointed me in the direction of Reiki, a Japanese spiritual healing and meditation technique developed in
the early 1900’s by Usui Makao, but has influences that date back through time, multiple religions and martial arts. The practice is about harnessing your spiritual energy or “Ki” through mind, body and heart and the ability to heal yourself and others. If you are interested in learning about it, I am currently reading a great book titled: “The Japanese Art of Reiki: A Practical Guide to Self Healing.” What I have come to learn is that the practice of Reiki has been dramatically westernized over time, heavily simplifying the art, making sessions shorter, healing “instant,” and costs higher. This of course was not attractive to me and not how it was intended to be. I sought out someone familiar with its original direct form, called Jikiden Reiki. Well, that road has led me to a phenomenal human being named Jordan Blain. He has a spiritual healing practice called “Life Flowering” that combines not only Reiki but multiple ancient healing techniques. To say my mind was blown after my first session is an understatement, the level of relaxation and comfort I left his office with was unlike anything I have ever experienced in my life. I am looking forward to my next session.
That is where I stand right now, I like thinking I am kind of like Luke Skywalker the first time he met Obi Wan Kenobi lol…(to say I was a Star Wars geek as a kid would be taking it easy on me.) I am lucky to have been given this great power, this great energy, but I am just beginning my journey and have a lot to learn on how to tap into the source of it. I will be sure to keep you updated on my new adventure. =-P
Much Love – Teej
p.s. Alex and Marg thanks for pointing me in the right direction, I love you both very much!